the_goren_show: (serious muse)
Like most people, I get asked everyday how I am and, again like most people, I have a tendency to give the answer of least resistance - usually something like "I'm great, how are you?" or if I'm feeling like trying to be funny "Still kicking, just not as high." - because being asked how you are isn't carte blanche to go into the deep dark crudded over bits of your life that are plaguing you.  "How are you?" is a polite conversation starter before the kick in the teeth in most cases in my work life and I do what is expected of me and give the polite answer 99 out of 100 times.  Nobody, as I read somewhere or other, likes a morbid bastard.

But this is not the polite answer.  Hell, you may think this isn't an answer at all, even if it is because I can't find the words to think about how I really feel or risk losing what control I have over myself and just going out to find the first person I can beat on until my arms are tired.  Yes, I made the video myself and learned I both despise and enjoy making videos.  It's a tribute to those days when just no one takes you seriously and with all the other little darts life sends your way you can forget that it really isn't all that bad.  I haven't had any of these days spiral to this point, though I will admit to it being something I struggle with every damned day.  So far I'm still standing but I'll tell you this... this person I am is not who I imagined myself being and I'm having a hell of a time reconciling the chasm between the two.

EDIT - 12/15/2011 - Sorry the video is offline, the copyright holder claimed the music back and since there isn't a song that fits the sentiments as well as the original one, I have decided not to reupload it.
the_goren_show: (serious muse)

I'm trying to be strong and it's not easy.  This song is one of my favourites when I feel like this.

Lyrics under cut )
the_goren_show: (Default)
 So many troubles and none worth reporting about so I'm going to put this up here and leave it for my friend Sky.

Enjoy, because who really knows?
the_goren_show: (Default)
I'd kill for a fraction of this man's raw talent.

And one under the cut )
the_goren_show: (smile)

This song will be the best six minutes and 21 seconds you've spent today.  I promise.

For my friends, if you ever need someone, reach out... I'm here.




Cut for Lyrics )


the_goren_show: (Default)

The war, well that we shall see.  The computer and I have come to terms on the email addresses and on recognizing that, yes, this is a valid address for FB.  I am registered and protected, I have everything transferred over except for my iPod/iTunes issue.

Life is working out nicely.  And so, for the damned obstacles that I hit, I have a special song.



the_goren_show: (Default)
I now possess the power of high-speed cable internet.

And what am I doing with it?

Watching Youtube naturally.


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